asphyxia_love

It's been more than a year. Outrageous! Obscene! If I knew a third word with a similar meaning beginning with "O" I'd use it here to give a Rule of 3 effect, but tragically I do not. So, why have I been away? One word: school. Or rather, my last year of college. I continued with all 4 of my subjects and thus have had none of the free periods that my peers now have. I'm not here to complain, just to explain. Its not long before I (hopefully) go to university, and I'm sure I'll have a bit more free time there to update this here Journal.

Its been so long that I nearly forgot just how much I love Livejournal icons! There are some amazing icon makers out there, many of which are completely new to me now due to the huge hiatus I've had from Livejournal.

There I was, despairing over the fact that I lack any programmes to make LJ icons with, and what should I stumble across but the icon request communities? These things are mad. Basically, if you can't afford lj icon making programmes, can't be bothered to make them yourself, or plain suck at it, you can just kindly ask nice people to do them for you! I happen to be the first and third reason btw. If I had the programmes I would practice.

Yes I know the whole world knew about the icon request communities before me but I am so goddamn excited that I needed to post a whole entry just about them. Also, behold the LJ icon of Lucifer above ^ that emmy_roo made for me. And I thought LJ was full of self-conceited, haughty individuals who looked down on those who couldn't make icons.

How wrong I was. Kudos to emmy_roo. My new icons are like my babies. :D

Uisng the American Beauty icon because it expresses how I feel when I find a new comic series to obsess over. Namely, the Sandman and Lucifer series, the latter being a spin-off of the former.

I don't even know what the Sandman series is about but it looks awesome, and I do know that Lucifer is about Lucifer. I'm currently reading Paradise Lost, so 'nuff said. I can't wait to get the whole series for both characters, volume at a time.

To hell with academia!

Before anyone kills me, I have consulted the FAQ page but the help there just confused me. Yes, my brain is the size of an ant's. I have some LOTF fiction to put into one of these neat LJ cuts but I don't know how. Any help is widely appreciated. Your reward is my fiction, if you really want that.

What is your name? Georgina. Call me Kate. My LJ username has nothing to do with the activity of pleasuring oneself through near asphyxiation, by the way. I have to keep explaining that to people. I just like the word "asphyxiate".
Are you legal in France? What, is that 14? If so yes. Nearly 16. This July.
Have you read any books on Albert Speer? I have read books that discuss Albert Speer, does that count?
How do you feel about Peter Francis Geraci? I am currently feeling that his name sounds quite nice.
If a dog barked at you, what would you do? Probably jump if it was unexpected-if it was behind a barrier I would just walk by like the superior organism I am supposed to be (ha, yeah right).
What time is it? 26 minutes past 10 in the evening.
What time is it in Tokyo? ....minutes past .....hours
Can you bite your own boobs? No. I have been trying for the last 10 minutes.
Do you pick your nose? After I ride my bike insects fly into it so its more of a, snort to get the insects out before I absorb them through my mucous membrane.
d0 u u53 int3rn3t typ3? No please. I already failed in trying to learn French. No more interent dark tongue.
Can you recite the Russian national anthem backwards, in latin, and to the tune of Baby Got Back? At the moment I don't even know what the Russian National Anthem is, sorry.
Did you lie about that last one? No.
What are you wearing? Red, slightly glittery top I bought in Spain, greyish/black jeans, studded belt, socks.
Under that? Underwear. Skin. Bacteria.
Has anyone ever told you that you have a uni-boob? No. Do I have one?
Have you ever been the recipiant of the angsty, white-trash rubber chicken of friendship? Yes. I still receive it, everyday in fact. Funny thing is, my mother thinks I am best friends with this person. Ha. Ha.
Can you make a chicken do the splits? No. Is that deemed humane by PETA? The RSPCA?
Has this little questionair made you not want to join? Yes and no.
What is your goal in this community? To express my odd interest in Goebbels.
What is the meaning of life? To wonder if there is a meaning to life and if so, what it is-then die just after figuring it out so no-one actually ever knows.
Have you ever obliterated a village? No. Unfortunately.

I am now on a crazy new revision timetable that my mother "helped" me put together, so now instead of just one hour of revision a night, I have two hours to do in the week and four hours on Saturday and Sunday. Thank the gods it is only for like the next eight/ten weeks or so.

Any more than that and I might die of sleep deprivation and computer deprivation.


Still with Tom. I amaze myself. Go me!

Nihilism appears particularly tempting at this time of my life, coupled with the influences from American Psycho.

I had something called LoveJuice today in my local shopping centre, it tasted....unique. Not unpleasant but not completely delicious. Lots of fruits mixed together.

Yes indeed, Teen Culture was fan-fecking-tastic. Granted I woke up on Sunday and I thought I had been stabbed in the neck, due to all the moshing I had done the night before (a moshover, if you will) but it was worth it.

Yes. Moshover sounds about right.

I am currently reading American Psycho by Bret Easton Ellis. I have decided that from now on, I will try to read the book before I see the film, that way I can bitch about the movie like everyone else who does it in that order. I'm really enjoying American Psycho, and even though I haven't seen the film, I keep picturing Christian Bale as I read it. He is a very handsome man.

Yes, I am standing in for Captain Obvious. He is currently away holidaying in the Costa Del Sol.

Sorry again for not updating for so long, although I doubt anyone actually reads this stuff. No new news again, really-my parents are in Paris so I am pretty much left to play Robbie Williams at a ridiculous volume to like ten to eleven every night of this week. I have no idea what it will be like but apparently I'm going to this Teen Culture club thing this Saturday with some friends, Tom insists I will like it. I probably will but I'm rubbish company in nightclubs, I just get lost in the music-or, if the music is crap, I simply dissappear and find an escape.

Not that I can say that I've actually been to many nightclubs.

I have also got a new notepad for my poems, somewhere to write them all up in neat. Hopefully no-one will find it.

Well, you know what they say. The truth finds a way of worming itself free some how. Or something like that. Either way, gazillions of people now know that I am "going out" with Tom. Even my mother, yes, gaaaah, my mother. She will tease me to the brink of madness, I swear.

Oh, and apparently Tom was given "the talk" last Saturday, after our third date. Or maybe it should be "teh talk". You know, about how unwanted pregnancy and STDs can come from sex. Not that we are having sex, mind you. But awwww, Tom's parents are lovely, I only hope that he won't be unsettled by my father and step-mother when he comes round to my father's house this Saturday.

Nyeh, the Tom Dating Club is still alive and kicking, kai! XD

Apologies for my absence; our internet has been down for a week or so because somebody downloaded something dodgy and flooded the downstairs magic internet connection box with lots of viruses; not much unlike how my body was recently attacked by the common cold virus. Yes, I am now having to tell my boyfriend Tom (the lovely, lovely Tom) that I cannot kiss him on Saturday unless he wants to suffer with me. So, that sucks. That, and the fact that I am living off lozenges and Starburst sweets; the Starburst sweets have no medicinal purpose, in case you are wondering-I'm only taking them because they tase much nicer than the contents of the lozenge sweet things and they give me little sugar highs.

Gah, hopefully someone will also volunteer to come and see MCR with me on March 22nd too. If not it'll just be me versus a bunch of die-hard MCR fans in the Birmingham National Indoor Arena.

I do not fancy my odds on that one.

Update on the crisis with Tom, the guy I have eyes for; if you know what I mean.

Today we were chatting on MSN and before he went he asked if I was doing anything tomorrow, which I wasn't, so he then he asked if I wanted to go into town with him. I am now going to go with the cinema with him, and now I have begun to worry about stuff that could go wrong.

Oh crap, someone help me....

Apologies for being absent for so long, I have an excuse-revision. I hope everyone had a great New Year and so on and so forth.

Well, I will now clutter up my page with even more rubbish about the guy I have eyes for-if you know what I mean. Stuff has sure been happening on that front! Now I can't this guy out of my head, no matter how I try. I actually directly told him how I felt through MSN messenger the other day-just last night-as he had got into trouble for staying out late in the holidays and he had been confined to his room; which is thankfully fitted with a computer. I'm not sure if this is a crush or something else, because I've liked him for quite a long time now, and I have had other crushes before but they have faded away. If anything, this is getting more intense. Steadily more intense.

So anywho, I told him how I felt about him, how he made me feel special (I had to apologise for cheesiness then, and I apologise again now) and how I think he is handsome, intelligent, amusing, kind and charismatic. I have hinted at how I feel for him before, but I've never told him outright, not all of it anyway. I was surprised I didn't scare him but when I asked him that he was like, No. So I suppose thats a good thing. I have no intention to date him, at least, not yet; maybe when I go to college-this year....

I saw a bit of the 40 Year Old Virgin yesterday. It was actually quite funny, which surprised me, because I thought it was just going to be one of those shallow screwed up Hollywood films where the virgin was poked fun at and labelled as a loser. All I have to say is, if I met a guy like the main guy in the film, I would love to date him! I love action figures and computer games and weird cult movies and whatnot. Not every female wants some muscle-bound asshole for a boyfriend.

If you're wondering, the subject line comes from the film. XD

Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm off to learn some French for school. And, before I forget, here's the plug for one of the journals I promised you people-
http://elanordh.livejournal.com/
She is so very talented at making icons, and yet so nice, I'm torn between envy and hero(ine) worship. The icon used in this post was made by her. Check out her journal and scroll down for 100 Arwen icons-they are all amazing and beautiful, little pieces of art.

[Pimping done]

My mother and step-father are arguing non-stop now that my step-father's eighty-year old mother has left us after staying for Christmas. Last night I was left alone in the house with them as they were rowing-my little sister was out at a sleepover, as was my step-sister, and my two step-brothers were at some party somewhere-and I was reduced to just sitting on the kitchen surface by the radio, listening to music and swigging from the Jack Daniels bottle that someone had got out-almost as though they had anticipated that I would end up in that situation.

On a more positive note, I have the new Rammstein dvd. :D I watched Pride & Prejudice last night and found that whoever played Mr Darcy was quite distracting as he was very attractive.

If you're wondering why I'm writing to my journal at such a crazy time, its because I've just finished watching The Rules Of Attraction. It is an amazing film; full of black humour and lots of things that I can relate to.

If you haven't seen it, I seriously reccomend you do. If you have-join in the squees with me!

Well, Christmas has come and gone, and this is the shit part where you just wait around for the inevitable New Years Eve Party and the New Year to come.

I got loads of stuff for Christmas, and quite alot of money too; so I am no longer skint! Lets see if I can stop myself from spending it all in the January sales again instead of saving up for that ungodly 80gb iPod video.

I have one new gadget already though-a most beautiful razor Motorola mobile phone. I've even customised the ring-tone: its my uncle singing really, really badly half drunk.

Changed my lj icons today. Marvel at the new ones! I actually found some American Beauty lj icons. I am amazed. I warn you; I will be pimping the makers of my new icons, but they do have some wicked icon making skills.

loltehdramas!!!!!1

Off to watch Saw 2.

Just finished watching The Virgin Suicides. It's an interesting film, a mixture of charm and darkness. Sofia Coppola is indeed a very talented film-maker.

Well, my crush Thomas has a new girlfriend, but I'm not upset, I'm happy for him. Besides, we'll always be friends and he said I had a "good figure, pretty face and sexy hair" when I put myself down recently. Of course, this cheered me up. And he insists that he means it, as he sees no reason in complimenting people when its false. I also told him about my opinion of what love is, and how it entails being with someone and loving them for who they are, not trying to change them or be in charge of them or make them someone they are not. I also shared my opinion on how I would not be bothered if a man I was with had a girl, or girls, on the side. To which Thomas jokingly answered, "Will you marry me?"

;)
He has no idea....

Anywho, Merry Christmas all.

Yeah, the guy I have a crush on described Wednesday's party as "interesting" to me over MSN messenger today. Hehe-smeg me, you should have seen his face when I kissed my friend! XD Priceless.

Today I didn't do a whole lot-I went swimming and did seventy lengths at the local gym, just like yesterday....then I came home and dossed around. Had chips and scallop for tea. I am now impatiently waiting for 9:00 pm so I can watch Have I Got News For You. Also, for some reason, I am creating a list of all the songs I will put on my 80gb (yes, that isn't a typo- 8o freakin' giga bytes!) iPod video when I can afford to get one. According to the apple.uk website, that's something like 20,000 songs. Feth, do I even know that many songs? :0

Well, I can't wait for Christmas. Damn, I always put something deep and unique in my LJ entries, don't I?

My mock exams are finally over. I broke up from school yesterday and went to a random mini-party at my friend's house; where I learnt that picking up a cereal box (an empty one) with your mouth with only two limbs on the floor is actually much more difficult than it looks and sounds! The box game....its actually really funny. I reccomend it to people having Christmas parties-basically, all you need is an empty cereal box or similar empty box, and you take it in turns to pick it up from the floor using your mouth. The only rules are; Only two limbs are allowed to be in contact with the floor as you pick it up (I found a particularly useful combination was a knee and a foot) and you can't use your hands to pick the box up. Oh, and you need to stand up with it in your mouth before it counts as a successful turn. It was hilarious to play and watch; even more so by the fact that the three guys present failed by the second round and blamed their unflexible muscle and bone structures. Excuses excuses....

We also played our own version of the game "Chicken", only instead of having two people running towards each other and seeing who chickens out first and thus loses, we had two people walking closer and closer towards each other and seeing who chickens out first. Our host is a rather devious young person and so she added the rule that if you get face to face, you have the kiss the other person; at first, a simple peck on the lips was accepted, and then she stated that there would be a prize for whichever pair had the raunchiest walk-up and kiss. No-one seemed to be brave enough to be truly raunchy so me and my friend, who happened to be the same gender as me, did a really flirty walk-up and french-kissed each other. People's reactions were hilarious-the girls just stared and the three guys present spluttered and then grinned. Well, we won the raunchiest walk-up and kiss competition without doubt, but we didn't get any prize! :(

Another hilarious thing-we each had a number and they were drawn in pairs out of a hat, and when my number was and the number of my crush was drawn, we went to kiss and I smacked my brace into his top teeth! XD Everyone went into fits, including me and guy. But it was cool and we're close enough to not be embarassed by stuff like that. Besides, I righted our clumsy failed attempt when we were playing Spin the Bottle and it spun to us two again-he grinned and jokingly said something along the lines of, "Let's see if you kiss boys as well as you kiss girls." Well, I thought that merited a kiss as raunchy as the one I gave my female friend on my part; which seemed to impress him anyway. Beat him at his own game! ;)

Oh, and you should have seen how awkard the boys were when they had to kiss each other. They kept glancing around as though they were scared someone was filming them! Ah, boys and their overt masculinity....

So, I was apparently 3% off an A* overall in both my History mock tests-I got an A in one and an A* in the other. Apart from History, I only know my Maths mocks-which I both failed miserably; getting a D on the Non-calculator and Calculator paper.

Meh, I can't be good at everything. I'm soon off to another party, a birthday party for some guy I'm friends with. He happens to be a film buff so we'll probably be watching some uber-artsy Russian subtitled film about angst and sex and whatnot. Good stuff.